April’s been off to a rough start, but I’m chugging along and things are starting to look on the bright side. Especially after reflecting on goals I accomplished in March.
I completed my Public Speaking Workshop at SafePlace with only positive feedback. It’s still something I get anxious about and want more experience with to bring in more confidence, but the coordinator had nothing negative to say and it was the presentation that seemed to draw in the most conversation and group facilitation.
Considering it was my first time booking and promoting an event, I was proud of how the SXSW Guzu Gallery show turned out. It was a major learning experience, and now that I’m taking on a second show that I’ll be booking and organizing independently in mid-May, I’m happy to have the ball rolling. Bands have started to approach me about ideas they have for shows and events, as well as asking me to keep them in mind for the next time I book a show. I’ll be joining in the booking and promoting process for three separate events this summer, not including my own ideas I have for fundraising and music events.
I completed my interview submission for Peach Fuzz, which is now mentioned on their pre-sale page on their website. Kelly, the editor, will also be throwing a party at Hotel Vegas for the release of the issue on April 20th. This will be the first time I’ve seen any work I’ve done in print (or at least the first time in a very long while), not to mention a party for it being held at one of my favorite venues in town. I plan to keep contributing to the magazine, and have a couple ideas in the brainstorming process for VaginaZine (a local zine, soon to be a print magazine), and a website for the near future.
I had already posted the video the other day, but the Boyfrndz’s music video I was a part of in February is now out online. The band is getting a lot of recognition and I’m very appreciative for the opportunity to be a part of a project like that and share the final result.
One thing I feel has been causing some stress and faltering on the wayside has been my outlook towards dating and, to a lesser degree, making sure my friendships are still thriving. Working on projects has resulted in me constantly having to choose between an evening out with friends or staying home to get back to emails, working from home and saving money, and focusing on my writing. Not to mention the occasional mood of craving some time alone. I feel like my emotions can stretch like a rubber band of one day desiring someone I really connect with, and the next feeling like I have no time for going on dates and the whole dating concept feeling like a major distraction and something I don’t have time for. I feel because I’m so focused on projects and other goals that I haven’t set time aside to figure out what I really want in a partner, or what choices I’d be happy with if it comes to casual dating and making those intentions clear. This is something I’ll get into more detail in a future post, but for now I’d like to make it a goal to write down what I am and am not looking for, and make more of a conscious effort to recognize those qualities in people, as well as allow myself space to be single and independent if that’s what’s best for me.
My final thoughts? I’m pretty damn proud of myself.